Christeana 5/3/2021 5:29 PM
Captain’s log Stardate 05022021.7 My first officer and I were deployed to the mostly arid eastern hemisphere of Riverton 3. Starfleet hoped to covertly observe the indigenous people of the region. Given the primitive technology on the planet, we had to resort to creating a rather rudimentary encampment to keep us warm. (edited)
Christeana 5/3/2021 5:43 PM
A small Riverton snake 
caused my officer to flee rather quickly. I don’t think we were in much danger, she felt otherwise.
Much later into our trip, we came across this rather scenic view. With temperatures still quite high, it was tempting to jump in.
The following day, we set out to document and even capture a few of the animals native to the area. We came across this rather large fungi that seemed sleepy but otherwise harmless. Bella was quite excited at the diverse creatures found on the planet.
As our mission came to a close and we arrived near our shuttlecraft, we came across this inhabitant that blends in with the scenary. He fled soon after. Speaking of the shuttlecraft, I’m still flying my older model as the other shuttlecraft waits in queue at Jupiter station. It’s maneuvering thrusters aren’t as bad as I remembered although I’m still very cautious about taking it too far. The warp core also doesn’t smell great either nor are the cooling injectors (AC) operational. Nonetheless, I still enjoy the memories and the feel of driving my original shuttlecraft and thus reluctant to sell it. If the need arises I will sell it but I will hold off for now, hoping to restore it, if only for sentimental reasons (edited)
Christeana 5/3/2021 6:02 PM
Bella and Noah are both now learning new skills. Bella had expressed interest in playing the piano 
I went ahead and invested in that set for her. Meanwhile, my chief engineer Noah has seriously got into cooking. I’ve went out my way to try and foster a love of something in them. I’m unsure what I’m going to do with lieutenant Tino, but I’m hoping I could find something else he can do besides playing on the holodeck. I’ve even recently got lucky enough to have swimming open up again. I spent no time returning to the pool. It felt great. (edited)
Christeana 5/3/2021 6:22 PM
Aside from that I’ve been spending a lot of time spiritually and doing chores . Additionally, I spoke with Chancellor Eric at length. He’s been instructive in a lot of things…just I’ve grown impatient with the constant brooding about his mom and ex. Definitely not a fan of being contacted over subspace channels late at night then hanging up after unloading on me. By that, I mean full on aggressive yelling like I did something though technically at least, it’s not about me. Perhaps I am being selfish in not hearing him out or being as supportive as I could. It’s just…at this point…I feel like my plate is full with responsibilities and I don’t want to deal with someone who is coping quite poorly with his situation. I feel immense pressure as it is and quite frankly feel a bit tramatized by all the bad. I also am not communicating much with Greg. I strongly disagreed with how he reacted to things and he refused to commit anyways. We’re going to stay friends but I’ve decided to move on from making him a priority. I’m still of the disposition that I offer a great alliance to whatever civilization and if they don’t want to join, I’m not going to go into extended diplomatic conversations hoping they have a change of heart. It’s probably for the best I go solo. I miss having a cuddling buddy and adult conversations during daily routines but whatever..at least for now I can mostly control what happens here without too much external influence..at least not direct influence…the indirect interference is still alarmingly high Star Trek Voyager closing credits music (edited)
Christeana 5/5/2021 1:05 AM
Captain’s log Stardate 05042021.9 Today was another productive if uneventful day. Took the cadets off to Starfleet Academy (school), spent time surveying the Mckinley sector, got some swimming in, printed and mailed an amended tax return, and picked up supplies for the ship. I spent a bit of time remembering Michelle. If we had stayed married, it would’ve been our 17th wedding anniversary. Spent more time over subspace conversing with Eric. Although he’s helped me in a lot of aspects, I feel like me and him have limited compatibility. Moreover, as I’ve went back over my past, I’ve begun to make a connection that I had previously made but didn’t pursue because there was insufficient evidence at the time. Our latest argument reinforced something that really ties a lot of disparate theories I’ve had together. And yet… I’m still compelled to talk to Eric because pragmatically; he has helped even if I dislike his methodology, personality and his opaqueness. If it all serves to ultimately be beneficial in spite of my disdain for him and constant doubt, I feel almost constrained in the path I must follow. I liken it to being placed in a maze where you can decide left or right but ultimately are led to where it wants to take you. Star Trek The Original Series mystery music (edited)
Christeana 5/5/2021 3:46 PM
Captain’s log Stardate 05052021.5 After our ship transported the cadets to Starfleet Academy, I was assigned to the Curtis expanse. The expanse is encircled by a number of unique interstellar dwellings. I never tire of beholding the unique architectural designs to be seen. The structures give me something to focus on during my visits. Subsequently I went swimming (edited)
Christeana 5/5/2021 4:00 PM
Christeana 5/5/2021 5:08 PM
I very much enjoy swimming. I want to take a picture underwater; though I’m unsure how I could do that logistically. Being a 12ft deep olympic size pool, the view is quite stunning from underwater when the dropoff happens from 6ft to 12ft. Plus I always enjoy looking up from the bottom of 12 feet and everything just looks so surreal. I feel a sense of peace and happiness given that I can mostly pass in the women’s locker room. The high amount of calories I’m burning helps me feel less worried about my eating. I got a lot of calories to eat now and I’m far less worried about my specific weight than before. I’m in a good place in that regard. Ive decided to get lieutenant Tino a microscope 
to hopefully start a fire in him about something he can love such as science or chemistry. I could definitely use a science officer. I also want to get them back into reading again. If they’re my job I want to do it well. I still get too annoyed being interrupted despite ample free time. I’m hoping to show more patience… Plus in time just a solid someone that’s all mines. Just one. Someone that can endure me. Eric…he supposedly wants to my all but he runs too hot and isn’t great at keeping my emotions down. I feel like he’s gas and he’ll just add fuel to whatever I’m upset about. Among other issues with him..imma try to rest for a bit and get out with Bella for an away mission later today. Star Trek TNG closing credits music
Christeana 5/6/2021 8:17 AM
Captain’s log Supplemental: I just feel like writing. No one else I can talk to. Everyone is always “available to talk” but mostly no one goes out thier way to talk to me. I feel like I always have to initiate for the most part. And even then I feel like I try to be interesting, funny, a good listener and yet I guess I’m just not that endearing to others. Ray is helpful but I don’t necessarily think he delights in hanging with me. I bounced around too much to make many other stable connections. Well if anything is gonna happen I’ll have to will it into being. I don’t think imma get deus ex machina’ed out my situation. I suppose at some point here imma gonna have to grind towards something. I can’t allow myself to end this year the same as I entered it. I’m just ..imma need a break at some point to catch my air. Aside from that..time for me to set course for the Mckinley sector. I’m going to try to get some more exercising in
Christeana 5/6/2021 12:20 PM
Captain’s log Stardate 05062021.2 I found myself once again at the McKinley sector. It’s a short flight from Earth and halfway to the water planet of Yamca 4 where I swim frequently. As I took my short away mission to McKinley, I mostly reexamined my past to try to observe how I came to be who I am. I didn’t come to any deep conclusions although isolation from others and spending a lot of time exploring has always been part of my narrative. (edited)
Christeana 5/6/2021 12:32 PM
As I swam at Yamca 4, I continued to be deep in thought. I try to look at myself from an objective perspective and well I’m not always pleased with the conclusions I come to about myself. Despite knowing how I should be, it’s hard to say for sure if I would have changed how I acted in the past knowing what I know now. All those mistakes and misperceptions have been instructive in making me who I am today. Towards the latter half of my swim, I channeled a lot of the negative self speak I have about myself into finishing strong in the pool. Typically, I spend the majority of the hour I’m swimming sortve at play. I twirl, flip, and float around as I do my laps. I’m sure it looks quite peculiar to the lifeguards as everyone else is doing laps and I’m out there like a water ballerina. (edited)
Christeana 5/6/2021 12:48 PM
As I docked back at Starbase 12 (home), I submitted another question to the psyche show with Dr Ali. The gist of the question focused in on how to treat a client. Primarily, I wanted to know how to treat myself. He made some excellent points about honoring the past but not getting too hung up on it. At this phase in my life, I’m fairly sure that translates to having to work hard at something and being consistent. As much as I enjoy my freedom and being indulgent, the things I really want out of life will only come if I will it to be. One of the big things this has meant pragmatically is that I’ve really tried to make a regular schedule. I haven’t stuck to it as well as I could, but the scaffolding for the path forward is in place. I do wish I had a loving partner to encourage and hold me but as I’ve already written..I’m probably not ready to put in all the work etc of looking for someone else. Still, that doesn’t make me any less lonely. But whatever, gonna push that down and try to focus. Star Trek Discovery intro theme (edited)
Christeana 5/8/2021 9:27 AM
Captain’s log Stardate 05072021 Starfleet has continued to have our ship deployed to various quadrants, conducting a number of missions (knocking out chores). Between staying fit and doing long neglected responsibilities I’ve been busy more or less a good chunk of time. During the interim, I’ve still continued to take pictures, chat and play on the holodeck. As pictured below, I seen this swarm of Xindi near the Delphic expanse. Starfleet will continue to surveil them to ensure they don’t become a threat once again to the Federation. (edited)
Christeana 5/8/2021 9:40 AM
Getting the microscope was my way of trying to get Lieutenant Tino into something that he could learn from and be passionate about. He was slightly interested for a bit but left and didn’t continue to pursue it. Tino very much has always had a bit of a teenager personality about things, just sorta shrugging most things off and returning to his electronics where he is passionate about winning in his League of Legends matches. I sometimes feel like I’m watching the old version of me as I used to be fixated on the MOBA, Dota 2. I have over 7000 hours played! I mostly didn’t say much over microphone as I was too shy though I’d get quite emotional. Also I was quite toxic in chat at times. I see some of those traits brewing in my lieutenant and I’m hoping to redirect him. (edited)
Christeana 5/8/2021 9:56 AM
I’m actually going about observing the Sabbath. Sortve. I’m not Jewish per se but as a former/ (once again?) Seventh day Adventist, I resolved to not shop or exert too much effort from Friday sundown to Saturday sundown. There’s already a cost as I will be very late to Pam’s birthday. She’s having an 80s themed party at 2pm. I’m still sorta tempted to go. I’m not sure what the Truth is. I believe something unusual is happening. Perhaps I’m reverting to something familiar and to what I believe has some semblance of Truth. I’m not sure what to turn to, only that what I’ve been observing doesn’t neatly fit into what I previously believed was possible. For now, I’m bidding my time as almost waiting for something to happen. I’m not sure if it’ll be good bad or just …weird. For now, I’m going to continue to try and improve in various aspects of my life and hope for the best. Star Trek Picard closing credits music (edited)
Christeana 5/10/2021 8:06 AM
Captain’s log Stardate 05082021.1 As the day began, the ship idled above Earth while the crew spent some of thier free time on the holodeck. Given my new dedication to observing the Sabbath, I resolved to rest. I even allowed the crew to skip routine maintenance. After some reflection, I decided that I wasn’t gonna be bound to the legalistic bounds of how the sabbath is observed. I decided to drive the kids out to the park. They had fun though surprisingly and a bit eeriely the rather large park was devoid of other kids. Eventually I was faced with a bit of a dilemma (edited)
One of the things the kids love to do is get a lil snack and slurpee from 7-11. I didn’t want to break the sabbath but also wanted to make them happy. I eventually decided that keeping them happy and bonding is something I find holy and therefore went ahead and we bought the snacks. Sure enough, during the long flight from the Davison sector we all had some rather joyous conversations. I very much relish those times. As I arrived back into Federation space, I quickly provided the crew with rations and sent a subspace transmission to my friend Pam. I was hoping the party was still going on. To my dismay, it was not. I was a bit disappointed she didn’t want me over anyways or try to arrange for a different day. I had a cute lil 80s outfit I wanted to wear too. Still, I would’ve made the same choice to skip the party if I had to again. I believe I kept to the spirit of the sabbath by taking it easy and spending time with the family and some time meditating. (edited)
Christeana 5/10/2021 8:23 AM
This is the outfit I bought for the party. A bit girly but whatever im still gonna find an excuse to wear it somewhere. I’ll post it when I do hehehehe
Christeana 5/11/2021 6:43 PM
Captain’s log Stardate 05092021.8 As I entered the McKinley sector, our sensors detected a rather large assemblage of astroids. The crew beamed down to the surface to investigate this unusual phenomenon. It seems that someone took it upon themselves to create an art project dedicated to mothers in commemoration of mother’s day. Astroids were tactically placed throughout the sector with messages inscribed. I even took part and added my own message. Aside from that, the crew once again were reassigned to thier maintenance shifts. Once dinner was prepared, I attempted a movie night. The crew didn’t care for Top Gun; a movie gifted to me by Chancellor Eric. The crew proceeded to thier quarters a bit into the movie. (edited)
Christeana 5/11/2021 7:15 PM
I spoke to Eric subsequently and he was once again belligerent. At one point he called me and I was listening to my voicemail so I just merged the phone calls and he started to respond to his own voicemails like he was talking to General Brandi… someone who’s voice is distinctively different… I was puzzled how he could be so either drunk or stupid as to reply to his own voicemails… upon informing Eric of his faux pas, he went full on curse storm…he is now blocked from sending me subspace transmissions. He was already on thin ass after my daughter overheard him screaming at his elderly mom…for her sake and my safety I’m cutting him off…at least for now. Apparently I have no backbone because I once again have spoke with General Brandi…she’s living in her shuttlecraft (car) with another trans girl. I guess the girl is a recovering addict on methadone. She’s quite passable but apparently doesn’t do much. Brandi goes by Brian once again…he’s running out of credits (money) and supposedly he’s off of the ketracel-white (meth). The Klingon empire is in absolute shambles…I’ve tried to give advice but as per their species .. they’re quite stubborn. Though out of desperation, the General offered to join the Federation…an offer not even acknowledged at first and later soundly rebuffed. It was a short while before old arguments arose once more…Brian tried to tell me my intentions or any intentions don’t matter…. legally it matters as well as morally and even common sense wise. (edited)
Greg informed me he no longer is reading my captain’s logs. His lose… he’ll actually have availability to visit me soon but didn’t press on it thus I informed him not to. I’m not going to go out my way to try and impress someone that insists that we are just friends and has 0 proposals for applying to the Federation despite whatever barriers. He just likes to flirt and collect information…he’s just trying to keep his options open and I don’t respect that. I’m attractive, smart, caring, etc enough to warrant someone’s full attention and effort and if not I’ll do this solo. Star Trek Voyager closing credits music (edited)
Christeana 5/12/2021 1:43 PM
Captain’s log Stardate 05122021 We were assigned to explore the Phoenix system; a rather barren sector of space. Starfleet records had indicated the possible presence of life forms on Phoenix 4. Our scans and away team only came across mostly arid landscapes with a few trees dotting our path intermittently. Additionally, the Class-L planet couldn’t be explored extensively as the temperature reached into the upper 90s. Staying properly hydrated became a concern and we had to leave in our shuttlecraft before we could map the planet to Starfleet standards. Back on my ship, a few subspace transmissions were sent between General Brian and I. I’ve been encouraging him to get back on track though letting him know that while I’m trying to remain friendly, that I have no plans to be closed allied with the Klingons. Aside from that, I’m planning to try and expand my online presence by putting the blog on a hosted site and hopefully getting around to putting it on YouTube. I’m unsure what to expect but I’m at least hoping to have more engagement/ input from others, maybe even generate revenue. Furthermore, I’ve finally got around to writing so I’m hoping to push out a book. I got some decent ideas…I think? Even if they’re a market failure I’d be happy to have actually done it. Star Trek The Original Series closing credits music (edited)
