A post where I roleplay counseling myself
Me
He (William) can’t be emotionally reassuring. It’s a logic equation for him. I mean…ok he did reassure me physically a bit and tried to be reassuring but he’s just ill-equipped. He’s very clunky at it.
Troi
A lot of guys don’t try to be emotionally reassuring at all. Most males tend towards theoretical logic as opposed to being skilled at being empathetic.
Me
Ive compared him to a protein bar.
Troi
A protein bar?
Me
Protein bars are tasty, filled with nutrients and better than a lot of things. They are far from ideal as they still utilize sugar and aren’t a natural food.
Troi
He’s your semi-healthy indulgence. What’s wrong with having a semi healthy indulgence?
Me
It’s not a good long-term solution.
Troi
We talked last time about his strong willingness to make adjustments. Is it possible that one day he can become a healthy indulgence and be mostly what you’re looking for?
Me
He does admit when he’s wrong and does try to correct things…. I just feel like it is a constant thing with him and it’ll always be that way. I don’t trust his judgment enough nor do I feel comforted enough by him for me to really feel like I could let my guard down completely and feel protected.
Troi
Being willing to admit mistakes and make amends is a good trait you don’t see in many people. Perhaps he will get better at handling situations that arise.
Me
I’ve seen how he handles situations…. He doesn’t fill a lot of niches that I have… He is a great conversationalist when it comes to intellectual stuff… And that’s pretty important to me even though he hasn’t really been able to stop me in my tracks during arguments.
The whole “fuck Jesus, he isn’t real” thing was disrespectful as fuck. This guy is so sure of himself and his theory of the universe despite me knock him on his ass numerous times. It just feels so arrogant to me and I’m SO not into that. Whether there is or isn’t a Jesus isn’t even necessarily the point…it’s just he doesn’t have humbleness and it shows frequently in his body language and tone. I don’t feel like he can teach me anything either. He also doesn’t help bring out my playfulness . I strongly question if he could handle the kids much less help improve the situation. Truthfully, I just want him as a close friend…one I have sex with sometimes
Troi
How do you think he’d feel if you put those boundaries on your relationship?
Me
He’d be crushed….imma make him cry …he seems to genuinely love me. He’d go with whatever but the longer I let this slide, the deeper in love he’ll fall
Troi
Why does he love you so much
Me
Cuz I’m lovable and cute hahahahaha. Seriously, it’s probably because I try to be emotionally reciprocal with him and I’m intellectually enthralling during our conversations. For the most part, I feel like he’s been very satisfied during our sexual encounters. I’ve also been very honest with him and I think I’m mostly otherwise enjoyable for him to be around. I think even spiritually I have helped resurrect him.
Troi
It definitely sounds like he likes you. However, I want to remind you that whatever you choose to do has to be about you, not him.
Me
*Sigh*
Troi
Just be explicit with him. You need to spend more time with the kids doing activities. I know you told me he wants to be a part of that… But they also need individual quality time. He seems willing to go along with whatever as long as you’re a part of his life….
Me
Troi
And why is that?
Me
He has shown me some kindness and he’s a pretty good person and he’s smartish and I feel like I should love him. I have started to have some genuine care for him but I don’t know it’ll ever be where it should be. I don’t want to cheat him out of what it’s like to have a fully loving relationship
Troi
Me
Troi
I think this time is different. Last time he was just being a stubborn in his head person. He finally believes me a little bit about some of the more incredible things and emotionally he actually cares for me for reals now, not just platitudes
Troi
Me
I have found ways to do that though lol. I will have an entire cadre of admirers hahahahahahaha.
Troi
I really should have you committed. They need to put you in a padded room with a straitjacket on and sound proof walls so they don’t have to hear your wretched singing!
Me
Troi
I believe it!
Me
What are we gonna do about me?
Troi
You make a fascinating case study. I will talk about you to my friends, colleagues and write papers detailing your unique form of otherwise unspecified psychological disorders.
Me
Hey wtf no!
Troi
That’ll be $480
Me
That’s twice as much as you charged me last time
Troi
You gave me twice the headache this time. I have to take the rest of the day off just to recover from your inane bullshit
Me
I also wanted to talk about..
Troi
We’ll talk more next week. Your hour is up.
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